Happy New Year 2014

It has been months since I last posted a decent article.  It has been a busy year.  But, in retrospect, we had such tremendous blessings in 2013.  To name it one by one will take forever, but the most important blessing we have received is becoming a  Third Order Benedictine also called an Oblate.

My husband, my daughter and I made a solemn promise before the Eucharist  to live according to the Rule of St. Benedict.  Since that time, our life changed.  We have attained so much peace.

Like as St. Benedict prescribed, we pray 7 times a day.  He believed that we should pray unceasingly and he described the hour and the content of those prayers that will punctuate your day.

We thought we would be losing time but instead, we felt our time multiply.

We ended 2013 with our  usual Filipino Tradition, an article I have written in 2009 summarizes this called “How to Have a Unique New Year Celebration” .

We also went to Holy Mass at 11 pm and followed it with Eucharistic Adoration at midnight.  It was very peaceful.

The best thing is my children looked forward to the New Year Celebration and the tradition of having FILIPINO food on the table.  They were so excited.  It is nice to see that on their faces.

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12 Round Fruits for New Year

The Filipino tradition states round circular stuff represent money, for me, it represents God in our lives. He created the world round and not square. For me, that tells something. The circle shape is more profound than we care to think about it. It is like God, the Beginning and the End but we cannot pinpoint and have no knowledge of the Beginning and the End, we just have an idea and a clue. Same goes with the circular shape – we do not know the beginning and the end, but God knows.

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Noodles represent “long life” and that is our inheritance from God – an abundant long life. It is the devil that wishes to STEAL, DESTROY and KILL. Thus, on this New Year’s Day, we will be reminded of our inheritance – we are meant for a happy, abundant life that can share boundless love to one another.

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PALITAW or white floaty sticky desserts. It floats out of the water and yes, it is another circle, and you put grated coconut (purity) and some toasted sesame seeds (golden) and it represents “golden pure blessings sticking on you all year round”.

I like putting this seemingly God-less tradition back to God.

Happy New Year!

Achieving Peace in the Chaotic World of Borderlines

It takes two to tango.  We can never solely blame someone with Borderline Personality Disorder that it is all their fault that is why you have no peace in your life.

A Borderline will always seek to engage you.  Some of us have separated ourselves from our Borderline loved ones for the sake of peace in our lives and in theirs.  It is a mutual giving and respect for their needs and happiness.

However, if things are going perfectly in their lives, the Borderline loved one is happy and will have no obsession to be with you.   It is only when something is amiss, even boredom, can lead them to you.

And, when they are ready to engage with you, they do not need your permission.  Having little sense of boundaries, they will storm your place without the usual etiquette .  They know they are not welcomed based on their past experiences, but they justify the unwelcome by gatecrashing the social boundaries that everyone understands except themselves. It empowers them with their so-called “rights” to their loved ones.

The healthy person in the relationship steps back and re-affirms the boundaries to their disgust and dismay.  Taking a risk after an abrupt decision to engage, they find themselves unwelcome and convince themselves that they are “ok”.  It gives them a false sense that they did something right, yet they feel the same old emotional garbage that makes them angry with their families and loved ones.    It a cycle of “hate, resentment and bitterness and rationalization.”   It seems there was never a growth on the direction of healing.  They are still holding on to the past hurts, when everyone has already moved forward to their healing and peace.

While it makes us sad to witness this,  we realize that it isn’t that they are not trying at all to be better and to make a headway in their lives.  In fact, the false sense that they are in a better place is the one the keeps them stuck to their old bitterness and resentment.

You cannot be better if you cannot forgive.  You can just suppress it for it is all over your face.  And, your body language says it all.  Without forgiveness, all the blocks to your healing are enforced.  And, you look happy to the world but in the secret depths of your heart,  you do not have the full freedom that our Lord Jesus is talking about in the Gospel.

The “F-bombs” in the Life of Someone with Borderline Personality Disorder

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One of my blog reader wrote me a few weeks ago about his spouse who attacks him with profanities.  I know of some folks who do not see any wrong with spewing out “F-bombs” from their mouth.  They live a split life.  With their friends they appear to be accommodating and sweet, but at home they throw out profanities when they get surprise about something as simple as an item falling down the floor.  Or when they are angry, this is their way to show that they are really furious.

In a primitive sense, a Benedictine Abbott explained to me that this is barking.  It is common among men.  They bark to let the other men know that they are tough.  Thus, when you hear men sprinkle profanities in conversations, they are like dogs “marking” their territories.    It is even their attempt to belong and sound cool.

For women, it is the same way.   Among their girlfriends, they find it acceptable to once in awhile show intense emotions through their cusses.  It sounds pretty normal and again, cool.  They need to do it or someone might let them know they are too straight and holy.

These people are too self-absorbed that they are clueless that their lives revolve too much about themselves.   The impurity of their words  is like polluted water.  It stinks.  It is dirty.  It is ugly.

In demonic manifestations, the spewing of profanities is very typical.   To able to handle this with your Borderline spouse and loved one , you have to realize that whatever you do, you cannot take it for granted because it will affect you in a disturbing way.

You need to leave the scene to regain your peace.  You cannot engage, but instead flee.      The first intervention when your Borderline spouse talks in this way is to find your peace.   Not only is it abusive, it is very demonic.

For more articles on Borderline Personality Disorders and Spiritual Warfare, you may be interested to read the following:

 

How to Survive a Relationship with a Loved One with Personality Disorders

New Tips for Loved Ones to Handle a Teen with Borderline Personality Disorder

How to Spot a Guy with Undiagnosed Personality Disorder

Secrets to Handle a Child’s Temper Tantrum

Handling Borderline Personality Disorder Rages: 5 Secrets for Their Loved Ones

Borderline Personality Disorder and Compassion

10 Ways to Handle a Difficult Ex ? Focus on Borderline Personality Disorder

The Scariest Aspect of Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)

Mother’s Day and Borderline Personality Disorder: When Mom’s an Emotional Terrorist

How to Spot a Girl with Borderline Personality Disorder

Developmental Trauma Disorder: Next High-Profile Mental Health Issue

5 Tips to Deal with a Loved One with Borderline Personality Disorder

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9 Signs Your Girlfriend Might Have Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)

Intermittent Explosive Disorder: Does Raymond Clarke III Have It?

Moms with Borderline Personality Disorder

Borderline Personality Disorder: 5 Ways to Help Your Loved One Heal

Temper Dysregulation Disorder: The Proposed New Label for Children with Bipolar Disorder

My Daughter’s Birthday

2013 April 11 Campbell Family Photographs (10 of 19)

For my post today, I like to spend time to talk about my beautiful daughter who just celebrated her birthday.  She turned 18.

It was a beautiful day.  My husband and I were filled with extravagant ideas on how to celebrate it and make it the  most awesome  birthday  ever.

Well, with the best intentions, our Lord had a different plan.

A  Benedictine priest was eager to come to our house to celebrate Holy Mass.   Is that normal? No, it is not.  At my age, no priest had ever come to our home to celebrate Holy Mass for me.  My jaw dropped.  Wow.  This is amazing.

We took the lead of the Holy Spirit and cancelled our plans.  With the best of intentions, we carried out God’s plans and not our plans.  Is that a super idea?

It is, but only if, you will recognize it as such.  It made me realize that if we are not willing to set aside our individual plans for God’s plans, we won’t be happy with the results.

The actual birthday was a teaching moment for me.  Jesus taught me that I do not have any power on how to make my children happy after they reach adulthood.  I can try but it will only be to the extent that He will allow it.

It never occurred to me that parents can be helpless in this way.   But, this is what the Lord did.  He tied our hands so His plans will be evident at the end of the night.

The Holy Mass was very beautiful.  It was very personal.  I have no doubt that our Lord visited our house through this holy priest.  His presence is enough for the day.

My daughter decided to have another birthday party at another day with her Catholic  friends. She planned it to the tiniest details.  She planned for a Disney princess party.  Most of her friends were eager about the idea and looked forward to it.   They gave her extravagant gifts.  Their  thoughtfulness and presence made her feel very loved.

She was tired at the end of the night but she was happy.  Her best friend was out of the country and her other close friend could not make it.  Yet, the other friends showed her the love that she missed out with her old friends.  It was an eye opener. It did not make her love her old friends less but the new friends enriched her life.  She felt happier knowing that God gave her new friends while her best friend was out of the country.

The amazing revelation is  my daughter  blossomed to a woman with grace.  

What does a woman of grace look like?

It is a woman who is beautiful not only physically but most importantly, beautiful inside.

As I was getting jittery about the whole mess when guests were supposed to  be arriving,  I witnessed how each of his siblings helped her out.  They were more than willing to assist her in the food that she will serve for the party.  I saw her father help with the cooking.  I saw even our youngest 7 year old son help in sweeping the hallway and the dining area.

I saw her handle this anxiety-filled moment with so much grace.  We have all the reason in the world to get upset when things do  not go as planned.  But, this daughter of mine, handled  the last minute preparations with composure.  She might be getting anxious inside but she knew the importance of staying calm to the most possible extent.

When the guests arrived, she was not yet dressed up.  The 3rd floor , where she was planning to hold the event did not have party decorations yet.     Her 5 girlfriends were not all disappointed.  In fact, they were so willing   to help her get ready.  They decorated the room with smiles and laughter.  One friend did her hair.  The rest of the siblings cleaned the kitchen downstairs and assisted her with whatever last minute stuff that needs to be done.

Though, I would have preferred it to be with my planning prowess, I watched at the bottom line.  It was not perfect.  But, the perfection of the moment was not if expectations were met.  The perfection was when she handled everything with grace.

Thus, I let go.  I forgave the chaos and mess and the part assigned to us.  I forgave her for committing us to pick up two friends 30 minutes away in a van without air conditioning in the humidity-filled heat of the Carolinas.  I forgave her for not making the house perfectly clean for this event.  I forgave her for inviting last minute guests that require us to entertain the parents while they wait.  Actual blessings came from that forgiving.  Each second was worth it.  The letting go and remaining calm about it were the test.

At night time, I let them relax to watch a Redbox movie with their Dad.  It was Labor day and I wanted my dear husband to have fun too.    I went upstairs and praised God that my daughter had a beautiful day.  It was not important whether we had a beautiful day likewise.  It really did not matter on her perspective if the rest of her siblings had an awesome Labor day.  And, it did not matter to us whether she will realize the backstage chaos that I had to prevent from escalating so that peace will reign in her princess party kingdom.

I rested in my bed appreciating the comforts of having a first class hotel-like bed to rest on.  I praised God for a room that is very spacious.  I praised God for my high tech computers.  I praised God for not being sick even when some of  the children were sniffling and sneezing.    I praised God that my family was happy downstairs watching a great movie.

The day was ending.  I lived my vocation that day as a mother.  I was a witness to the wonderful transition of a woman from a girl to a woman, not fond of cupcakes anymore but with a whole plethora of girly stuff that changes as the breeze.

This is the world of a young adult.  They are on fire to setting their dreams to reality.  The blessing is just not to watch them beam with happiness and pride with their success but to see them grow in grace.   I count that as a blessing that I can see her grow up each day.  I watch her fail sometimes but I see her pick it up and continue to grow with so much hope.  She is not stuck in her life to some old wounds.  She is determined to be free but only within the boundaries of the will of  her Savior.  And, that is a beautiful thing to watch and ponder.  The best realization is knowing that her blossoming has little to do with me but a lot with the graces that our Lord had given her.  For it was due to me, she will be a mess.  Not out of false humility, I have to give credit where credit is due.  All glory to you Lord.

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Healing from Fibro and Backpain

I convicted myself that I will never heal of my chronic back pain which I suffered for more than 10 years but I did.

Praise be to God for this healing.

Following is my testimony: Healing Mass Cures Back Pain

Do you want to be free of a lingering chronic illness like back pain? You may have tried seeing an acupuncturist, chiropractors, massage therapists, physical therapist and medical doctors but you find no relief. Discover the healing mass.

Abuses from Borderlines that Could Happen In Therapy

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It is very difficult to explain a life with someone with Borderline Personality Disorder. I have stopped writing about them because I really do not want add to their misery. My recent articles have encouraged their loved ones to have compassion for them.

I found a blog from a practicing mental health professional on how difficult it is to deal with a patient with Borderline Personality Disorder. I am directly pulling the story from the website “Rage and Entitlement from Borderline Personality Disorder” by Dr. J Burgo. For BPD sufferers, it will be a good idea to do an internet search on Dr. Burgo. He seems to have a compassionate understanding of the illness.

From Jay, a mental health professional:

I have been cleaning urine and feces off her floors for over 2 weeks now. I have had my shirts ripped, my butt pinched, slipped and fell in her urine too many times to count. My other charges are neglected. She takes up all my time.

She gives me heartburns. I have knots in my stomach when I walk in the door. I am anxious and cranky. I hear her in my sleep telling me she’s going to find me and kill my cat. Her rages are violent, so raw and ugly.

Yes I signed up to work with difficult patients. However, I am also person with feelings and a clothing budget. Pretending that her behavior does not affect me would be a lie. I went home with a black eye Thursday night.

“Blaming the client?” Me? Nah. Never. She can slap me , push me , pull my hair, spit on me , I am not going to blame her . I know she is sick. I am getting paid to help her but I am also being abused, and that freaking sucks. So yes, I think that I am allowed to be angry at her for not letting me do my best.

My job suffers from her behavior. I can not work with my other charges because of her. She monopolizes my time. Out of 8 hours, she takes 7. My other darlings are left in the cold.

For example, I was talking with a charge, she walked right in to the girl’s room and sat on her bed. I said “X, I am with Y right now, give me a minute and I’ll be out”. She replied ” nope, I’m gonna sit right here t’ill you’re done with that dumb b*tch.”

Y got up and left, angry at me.

Repeat that scenario n time per shift. If I dared to not run when she calls, I’ll be cleaning up feces or urine, or she might corner me and slap me around a bit.

Later on Y was found in the shower, cutting. I could not even go to her because I was holding court at X’s.

No I do not blame her but I am angry at her. I am angry because she won’t let me help her. She is not even trying me meet me 1/3 of the way. She wants my time but not for therapy, she wants to watch TV, paint her nails, chat and gossip. As soon as I say something about dealing with even a minor frustration, I am the bad guy.

For example, after an episode we are supposed to debrief. She refuses. She acts like she did not do anything wrong. She just erases the bad behavior and expects everyone to do the same.

She does not talk about what’s going on in her mind, she blocks all emotions that she finds unpleasant and if I dare push I get hit. There is no therapeutic report. It’s a hostage situation, I do what she wants or I pay.

Thank you for your time and advice.
Jay

For more articles to understand people with  Reactive Attachment Disorder (RAD) Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD),  you may wish to read the following:

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Former Atheist Turn Catholic

“Prominent atheist blogger turn Catholic” youtube video, reminds me of individuals who are opinionated and self-assured that they are doing the right things in life because they have a set of rules of what is morally right.

Yet, though they are partially correct in their observations, they do hold some truth. However, not the full truth.

Even lukewarm Catholics, especially the young adults, are inclined to think of their faith as a set of rules. They can pick and choose what they want to follow and practice at definite points of their life.

This “cafeteria” outlook of faith helps them sleep at night. It helps them troll through their studies and job. However, they are not advancing in holiness. They may be surviving in their current jobs and lifestyles but they are not becoming holier.

And, they do not mind not being holy. Perhaps, holiness is for some and not for them. The question is “Why do they think this way?”

The answer is simply their minds are oppressed. The devil has put them in a bondage so their minds can think how the devil wants them to think.

The mind of Jesus is directed to holiness at all times. The mind of the devil is geared to steal, kill and destroy. Its aim to dampen their holy life and bring it to a life of survival, where there will be no fruits for God but entirely the so-called fruits to serve their own desires.

The desires to look good and fit. Why? So you can look handsome or pretty for God? Absurd.

The desires to be successful in school and work? Why? So your children do not have to suffer a life of poverty?

An atheist perspective is an outlook of “self”, that is, you can achieve great things if you look inward, to yourself.

Do you believe this lie?


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10 Reasons to Teach Cursive Writing First Before Print

Economist: One of the Top Paying Professions in the U.S.

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The Effects of a Label to a Child’s Psychological and Learning Disorders

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5 Benefits of Piano Lessons that Parents Should Know

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The Questions to Ask the Presidential Candidates: Do You Know the Ten Commandments

13 Foolproof Tips for Parents to Avoid Teen Depression

Recognizing and Treating Teen Depression

Conflicts with Stepchildren: What You Don’t Know

Who Else Wants to See the Pope?

Raising Your Teen: What You Want to Avoid

The Mathematical Equation for More Catholic Vocations

Ten Tips for How to Handle a Difficult Child

5 Quick and Proven Ways to Calm a Child

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