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You are caught in a snare. It almost feels like a web. You are stuck. You do not have confidence to make any movements at all. It seems that you are called to reflect on the emotions you are feeling right now – confusion, hurt, anger, betrayal. No action means you will be forever entangled in this nightmare. You need to do something.
These awful feelings are common for the loved ones of those suffering from Borderline Personality Disorder. The betrayal of the past haunts you. You feel justified hurting. You also feel that is fair to show a controllable anger to your situation. You are tightly holding on to reality. It seems that the more you entertain the betrayal, the angrier you get. It just seems unfair that your Borderline loved one has a passport to their rages, disobedience and betrayal. And, you – the person loving them face a life of constant wounds.
Your Borderline loved one undoubtedly causes a new wound to another wound that have not yet healed. If you are going to take a look at it closely, is it just one part of your life where you feel so wounded? Or does the Borderline in your life inflict one wound after another in other areas of your life? How can you heal from that kind of situation?
Yes, the burden on the caregivers of those with Borderline Personality Disorder is not easy. It is a life of constant emotional abuse. At least, this is what the secular world thinks about this. You are suppose to be the “normal one”. You have to understand this disorder. No one has an accurate prescription for healing.
If you son or daughter is suffering from Borderline Personality Disorder, you must know that in the process on entanglement with your Borderline child, you may possibly incur a “root sin”. It may be as simple as “unforgiveness”, or the inability to completely forgive.
Shouldn’t forgiveness be always complete ?
Peter came and said to Jesus, “Lord, how often shall my brother sin against me and I forgive him? Up to seven times?”Jesus said to him, “I do not say to you, up to seven times, but up to seventy times seven.
Wow! Without calculating that, that is lots of forgiving. Many of us took that figuratively. But, really how many times have we really forgiven our Borderline loved one? I doubt that you did “70 x 7” times even if it felt like so.
Forgiveness may just be defined as one simple act. But, we all know that there is tremendous work involved when you forgive a person.
When you forgive your loved one with Borderline Personality Disorder, do you feel like cursing them for the injustice they did? Do you feel they deserve the situation they are in? Do you feel their case is really hopeless and you did everything already for them? Do you feel this deep nasty feeling of repugnance that really you would rather spend the day with someone else? Do you want to avoid them, at least for a day, several days if possible? Do you force yourself to treat them nice and end up being sarcastic, sad and negative? Do you plan to do something good for them and end up in an argument?
Would you have any hope to be “happy” with this current state with your Borderline loved one? Seems to be a typical lamenting but really if you do not think you will be joyful being with your Borderline loved one, then you are in “darkness”, also called a “darkness in your soul”. Some call it an “epiphany”.
I like to direct you to some Catholic Saints who experienced some “darkness in their souls” such as St. John the Cross, St. Theresa of Avila, St. Theresa of the Child Jesus and even Mother Teresa. They struggled with the confusing feelings of forgiveness, from those who were stumbling blocks to their vocation and to a certain point they were rebelling to God.
If you are in despair about your Borderline child, you must reach out for “hope”. How can you have hope, when you feel darkness or a multitude of negative emotions? There is no sense. There is no light to your situation with your Borderline child.
You are seeking the answer in the secular world, whose prescriptions of healing are limited by scientific studies.
In order for you to see the Light, then you must have also have faith. The faith that God is not up there not knowing what you are going through. It is up to God, based on His Divine Plan for your life, to determine if the “answer” to your problems with your Borderline loved one will be a quick one or a slow, gradual one. Yet, our human nature hopes for the fastest route to healing. Thus, the first stumbling block is your impatience.
We cannot force it quick when God wants you to get something out of this on a daily basis in your life. So, part of dealing with Borderline Personality Disorder is acceptance of this illness. Separate the illness from your child.
The next step is cultivating the virtue of “patience” in your life with your Borderline loved one. Patience requires a conducive environment that is highly proportionate to the stress in your life. Thus, stress-relieving techniques go hand in hand with being patient. Stress makes you more impatient. Sickness and physical pains make you more impatient. Strive to live a healthy life.
God is not refusing your countless prayers for your Borderline child. He wants you to learn to communicate with Him. He wants you to come to Him and rely on Him completely. This is something not easy for us mortals. We always think that we have to rely on ourselves first.
When we talk about God’s Divine Plan, guess what? You are executing your life story authored by God. Guess what? God had it all planned out when He carved you in the womb of your mother. And guess what, God only wants our “ok”. He wants us to say “yes”. He wants us to lovingly accept His Divine Plan uniquely tailored fit for us.
God prepared you to take care of the Borderline loved one in your midst. You have to be patient if you discerned that God’s solution to your problem is not the quick route. You have to forgive your Borderline loved one. It means for each hurt a Borderline gives you, put simply, for each wound a Borderline cause in your heart, muster your strength to pray for your Borderline child. Teach yourself to call on God, not only on the most difficult parts of loving them, but daily. Say it over and over again “O Lord, come to my assistance. O Lord, makes haste to help me.”
The bottom line of this post is the crucial element of forgiveness and how to do it the right way. And, then you proceed to accept your responsibilities with your Borderline loved one but with renewed hope that this is not your battle alone. God has forgiven us and are able to forgive us with His Infinite Mercy and He also promises us that as long as we are willing to forgive, we can be faithful to our responsibilities or the vocation we are called for.
Unforgiveness connects us to the root sin, the cause of the darkness in your life. Forgiveness connects us to root Good – who is our Creator, our Light Source.
Mathematically : Unforgiveness + unforgiveness = darkness and loss of hope.
For articles on Borderline Personality Disorder, you may wish to read the following:
How to Spot a Guy with Undiagnosed Personality Disorder
Secrets to Handle a Child’s Temper Tantrum
Handling Borderline Personality Disorder Rages: 5 Secrets for Their Loved Ones
Borderline Personality Disorder and Compassion
10 Ways to Handle a Difficult Ex ? Focus on Borderline Personality Disorder
The Scariest Aspect of Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)
Mother’s Day and Borderline Personality Disorder: When Mom’s an Emotional Terrorist
How to Spot a Girl with Borderline Personality Disorder
Developmental Trauma Disorder: Next High-Profile Mental Health Issue
5 Tips to Deal with a Loved One with Borderline Personality Disorder
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9 Sings Your Girlfriend Might Have Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)
Intermittent Explosive Disorder: Does Raymond Clarke III Have It?
Moms with Borderline Personality Disorder
Borderline Personality Disorder: 5 Ways to Help Your Loved One Heal
Temper Dysregulation Disorder: The Proposed New Label for Children with Bipolar Disorder